I'm tired of cheesy Christian music. I'm tired of worship songs. Of closing my eyes while I'm singing, feeling uncomfortable because of the crazy people sitting next to me, lifting their hands and dancing. I'm tired of it all. I'm tired of pastors playing with my emotions, just trying to get some sort of spiritual respnse. I'm tired of prayers with a guy playing guitar softly in the background. It so cliche. And feels so staged.

I just want me and God. Real.

This entry was a reaction against my roommates music. She just turned it off, but it was some pretty boy worship band singing about how extragavant God's love is.

I'm just in a bitter mood I suppose.

I think my roommate is a robot.

5:30 p.m. November 30, 2005
yesterday . not so yesterday