I've made some new friends lately. Not really new, but I've gotten closer to some that I used to not be so close too. In doing so, I realized how shallow my friendships are with people that I thought were my favorite people. We never really talk about anything of any value. We talk about our days, school, and meaningless shit like that. (my second curse word! what's going on!?) There's no depth. There's no point. But in getting to know great people like Whitney and Jenny and Allison, I'm realizing what I've been missing. I don't really like my old friends. Did I ever really? I dunno. I think they were just there to make me feel better about myself.

9:50 p.m. November 18, 2002
yesterday . not so yesterday